we will miss you all

Isn't it funny that when you read in the papers about people, people you don't know personally, passing away from horrible accidents that you don't feel a thing? Well, maybe you do, but it's not a feeling that would last for long. But when it's people you do know, it comes as such a shock. There's that feeling of disbelief, that you don't believe it is real.

And your heart aches cos you can't believe not ever seeing them ever again when not too long ago, they were alive, breathing, laughing, talking, joking around, being happy. You're in denial cos it's all just too sudden. Too soon. They were too young to have something like this happen to them. Then maybe there's a tinge of regret for not getting to know them better or treating them with more care.

Them being people you do know, you imagine what their last moments of life must have been like. How horrible it must be to die the way they did. How unfair it was that their lives had to be taken away so prematurely. Just when they barely got to step out into the world. But who knows, it may just be a blessing in disguise that God chose to bring them back so early. That He was protecting them from this world we know, and we all know how messed up the world is.

What goes through a parent's mind, when their hopes and dreams have been shattered, to have to bury their child when it should be the other way around. How much hurt must they have felt to have lost someone they love. Someone whom they have watched growing up since they were just a little baby. Going through all sorts of obstacles to raise a child that would be fit for society.

What does a friend feel, going to class and noticing that there is an extra seat in the class, knowing who used to sit there. Feeling the loss of a friend whom they used to share secrets with, joke around with, and maybe cried with.

How does a sibling feel, losing a brother or a sister. Whom they may have bullied, or may have been bullied by and then wished that he or she was dead, and then now to have it happen, how much they must blame themselves and wished they had taken back those words.

These are all just senarios that come from my mind. One that thinks too much.

It's disheartening seeing people who cared so much about them cry..

There's still a part of me that doesn't believe that these people are gone. But the matter of the fact is that they are. Although I'm not that close to them, I still think of them as friends, and it still saddens me deeply to see them go. They were beautiful and talented people with so much to offer the world. It was a shame for them to have to go. But God called to them, and who is to argue with Him? I know they are in a better place now. I just hope they know how much everyone here misses them.

I will still pray for them and their families. May God give them the strength they need to go on.


Rest in peace.