Monday, March 28, 2005

love this song

It's such a sweet song and it strikes true.

Dewa - Aku Milikmu..

Terdengar lirih bisikanmu
Diantara bayang-bayangmu
Terucap kata cinta
Yang dulu tersimpan
Dan tak mau pergi

Sekejap cinta terlahir
Namun jadi sebuah cerita
Yang tak mungkin terlupa
Kuukir dihati
Dan tak mau pergi

Mungkinkah kumiliki
Cinta seperti ini lagi
Jangan biarkan aku
Kehilangan dirimu

Coba dengarkanlah sumpahku (Janji suci)
Dari hati... aku cinta kamu
Jangan dengar kata mereka
Yang tak ingin kita satu
Yakinkan aku milikmu...
Aku milikmu...

Jalinan cinta tulus suci
Terpadu terikat erat
Jangan terpisah lagi
Waktu 'kan menguji
Cinta kita berdua

I'm so jiwang, it hurts.

Thursday, March 24, 2005

boy, i yak a lot

I'm blogging at 8.05am!! Hahaha.. and I'm still home... oh, no! Yeah, I accidentally didn't have any transport to campus. -_-" So I'm here instead.. sitting in front of the pc, with my getting-soggier-with-every-passing-second bowl of cereal. Which, I don't really feel like eating actually but had prepared only because I was having a tummy ache. Haihh... kimkc has also been having tummy aches la~ this la~ that la~ copycat. Hahaha. I should really stop going to bed late at night when I'm starving just because I'm too lazy to go to the kitchen instead to get some food.. you think??

Heh.. alright.. I just realised that I am now missing my first class. Or skipping it. Nooooooo!! And I actually like this class.... -_-" I got up early for nothing. Haha.. oh, how did I accidentally not have transport? Usually my mom would leave the car in the house when she isn't sure if I need it or not.. usually on days when I won't tell her if I'd be needing the car or not. Unfortunately, this time she didn't. When I came downstairs and looked out the window which overlooks the garage, I was like, oh shiiiiiiiiiiittt....... Hahaha!! Everyone else was out of the house already. My brother was at school, my little sister was at school, and both my parents had gone to work.

I'm feeling better since yesterday, or the day before that, that's for sure. Everyone I talked to the day before yesterday had been quite fatalistic and not supporting of my relationship with Rafie.. I'm not blaming them, I suppose they got their own reasons for not liking us.. They're not bad people just because they don't approve of it.. That's just their own opinion. Funny.. everyone I talked to yesterday, however, had been very supportive and had been great. How about today, eh? Heh..

I guess that gal had her reasons for accusing Rafie of being a player and not a good person.. She said she knows he is one because she herself was cheated before.. that she once dated Rafie but it didn't last long and that one of Rafie's brothers had told her that Rafie was cheating on her with another girl in KL.. Hmm.. and then now she's with one of Rafie's brothers. Hmmm.. it just really seems as though one of Rafie's brothers had told her that Rafie was cheating on her because he wanted to get with her instead. That's what it really seems like, no? However, I wouldn't know. I have no idea which brother it was that had told her that. Was it the same brother she's with now? If so, it must be very heartbreaking for Rafie to know that one of his own brothers had betrayed him like that.. I know.. that if Aaron or Andy had done something like that to me, I would've completely lose whatever trust I had in them.. in my family, in my friends, in anyone. Cause if your own flesh and blood is able to do something like that to you, what more others?

I've included a little picture of Rafie and I in this entry. Hehehee... yeah, it's that one in the top left corner there.. that would be him tugging at my mouth forcing me into a smile.. cos that's what he is.. that's how he is.. making me smile even when I don't wanna.. when I'm trying to be mad at him for something he did, pouting, and merajuking in a corner.. he would still manage to come around and make me smile and laugh.. and when that happens, I get so annoyed at myself for not being able to stay mad at him for long. Haihhh!! It's a really cute picture.. I love it. And.. I love him.. However, with what's been going on lately.. It's hard to be sure of anything. Except that I love him. That I am sure of.. but.. can I trust him? Can I trust anyone? Yeah, that, I can't really be sure of right now.

Oh yes, and now I shall start talking about the last episode of American Idol.. finally! The girls are not as boring as the guys. Amazing. I was so suprised when Carrie chose to sing a song I had put up in my blog yesterday morning, just before I went off to school. What a coincidence! Haha.. and I love that song.. although it's really old.. from either the '80s or the '90s.. :P What's more, Carrie sounded great singing that song! Love it. And then there was Nikko.. yeah, he's back! I admit, he was yes, pitchy in his before last performance. Hehe.. he even gave Wani goosebumps. That's my boy! Haha.. and they had a great ending. Jessica did a great job of ending the show. That was probably her best performance. However, Nadia didn't live up to expectations. Which is too bad.. but I'm sure she wouldn't be kicked out just cos of that last performance which was still good, not bad, but not great. And I want Antony out!!! Don't understand why that boy is still in the competition. He's never actually been any good. I don't know.. he just always bores me.

Oh yes.. I was gonna talk about my time in school.. which was only for one hour. Haha! Cos I only had one class which lasts only one hour. What a waste of a time. Well, I had Moral class.. and well, we were all randomly placed into various groups whom we were all supposed to work with for the rest of the semester. The horror...... why? I'm... so totally SHY. OMG, meeting new people scared me half to death. Even worse when I have to do it alone. Of course people I know wouldn't say that I'm shy. Of course not! I know them.. why should I still be shy amongst them? First meeting.. of course la shy.. but not many people remember that. Haha.. what made the new group thing bad was that.. they were all Chinese and would then proceed to talk amongst themselves in Chinese leaving me just sitting there, staring blankly at either the ceiling, the desk, the floor, my hands. How embarrasing and what a curse it is to be Bidayuh Chinese and not be able to understand either language. I suck. Well, my group consisted of 4 other girls and only 1 other guy..

Anyway, we were all put together to sit in our group to discuss what name we would like for our group, what logo/symbol would our group be using, what are our group's objectives, and who we wanted as our leader. I unfortunately, got picked to be leader. I'm so not the leader type, no matter how much I want and try to be. How did I end up getting picked then? Cos of my student ID number, no less. Hahaha. Cos it was different from the other girls because I.. embarrasingly enough, am a repeater. Failed a few subjects, and had to stay back an extra semester retaking all the subjects I failed. The boy, Wilson, was also a repeater but they chose not to pick him as a leader only because he was a guy and the other girls didn't want the lecturer to think that we were picking on him. *rolls eyes*

What made the group thing was.. was that, they were.. you know.. girly girls. Oh gawd.. I can't stand it.. should've heard the names they tried to give the group. OMG. *shakes head* Hahaha.. anyway, at first.. they drew us a logo of a really cutsie angel. So then, we just had to have our group name have something to do with that angel, no? Wanna hear some of the names they suggested? This is scary.. they suggested names like Cutie Angel, Cuties, Cute girls, Girls only, Angels....... the horror!! What's wrong with these people?! I was so desperate not to be in a group that had a name like that... that's why I kept asking the boy, who was being so quiet, if he had any suggestions or idea.. but he just kept shaking his head, saying no. I was like, don't you even care if you ended up being in group named Cutie Angel?!?!?!! *rolls eyes* In my head, of course. Anyway, we all settled on the name Shining Halos instead. At least that's way better than like, the other names they tried giving us. Gross!!

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

thoughts that swim

Foohh.. what a day.. oh man.. *buries face in hands, mutters* I hate my life.

Should've known it would've been too good to be true for someone like me to ever find someone that could love me, that would love me, and appreciate me for who I am.. and to accept me the way I am.

Was that girl sincere and truthful saying the things she did? If she was, then why only now tell me all these horrid things? Why not sooner? She's been on my MSN contact list for ages now. Why only now when I'm filled to the brim with doubt and insecurities, that she decides to come around and tip me over? *stab stab* Why only now, when she probably realises that I'm at my weakest? That she tells me these things? Is she after Rafie? Is she being truthful, sincere? Why did she even bother telling me these things? And now? Why not sooner? Fooh.. and I don't even KNOW her. Not even things like, how old she is or even her name. People nowadays are so hard to trust.. you never know their true intentions..

These questions plague me. I have to live with them night and day. They have robbed me of my sunshine, my smiles, my laughter, my appetite, my sleep.. what's worse is that.. I can't find the answers to the questions my mind hungers for.. I can't be sure of it.. when I think back and remember all the memories Rafie and I share.. the times we spent together.. the way he always took care of me.. all the money he's wasted on me.. all the time he's spent on me.. and how it felt so real.. how his love for me felt so real.. heh.. remembering how truly happy I was.. I feel sure again.. that he IS for real.. that he wouldn't do all the things that girl said..

But with the lack of communication we've been having lately.. me not knowing what he's been up to.. it's hard.. especially when it's been going on for weeks.. this lack of communication thing.. it's hard not to believe some of the things that girl said. I feel like.. I just need to talk to someone else who also knows Rafie.. instead of that girl. Someone I could.. trust.. I thought of Syafiq.. and I wanted to go over to his house this afternoon to talk to him.. but I couldn't contact him at all.. sigh. Everytime I talked to him about Rafie.. heh.. yeah.. he always said that Rafie truly does love me.. and he would always say how lucky I am to have him. Although Syafiq sort of dislikes him.. I just felt like I needed to hear it from him again.. who better, eh? Than someone who doesn't like Rafie but still believes that we're great together?

Was I just too naive..? That I missed all the signs that could've showed me that Rafie was a player? Or am I drowning in so much sorrow that I choose to believe that girl instead of the one who's been loving me for 6 months now? I'm so pitiful and pathetic.

Saturday, March 19, 2005

heart/love/cute

Yay!! I finally managed to do something to my blog that I've been wanting to do for quite awhile now. Which was to have an icon!! Muahaha!! And yay!! I got one now.. cute too!! Unfortunately for you IE (Internet Explorer) users.. you guys can't see it. Man.. I'm loving my new icon.. it's so cute. Firefox users would be able to see it just fine though. Hehehe. Cuteeeee!!! Kakaka.. oklah.. kesian you people who can't see it.. so I've include a little picture of it. ;)

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Nikko's back!!

w00t!!! Nikko's back!! So happy!!! Hahaha. I was so heartbroken and devastated when I heard that he had to leave. My Nikko~ *sob* Hahaha. Nah, I wasn't THAT heartbroken and devastated. I just thought it was unfair that he didn't get to be one of the top 12. He's my fave cos he just had his own style which really fit him. Yeah! *thumbs up* Hahaha.

Kept complaining to Wani how unfair it was that Nikko and Travis had to go out when Anthony and Scott should've been the ones leaving. Oh btw, for you clueless people out there.. I'm talking about American Idol. Hehe. Anyway, Wani kept going "At least my Mario is still there..." Muahahaha!!! Padan muka!! Cos right.. Mario suddenly had to leave the competition for personal reasons and so they brought Nikko back. I even screamed when they announced that Nikko was coming back and was gonna be performing. Hahaha!! Muahahaha!! But sayang also lah.. cos.. Mario is quite an entertainer. I just really wanna see Anthony and Scott out. Hahaha. I'm so evil. And I want Travis back too.

I think Anthony is still in only cos of his boyish looks. Yucks! I bet all those tween girls vote for him. Gross. He's never actually had any decent performances to begin with. He's just so boring. He should really go. Shoo shoo!! I hope he gets kicked out next. Hahaha!!

Yeah, that's it. I just forgot that I wanted to write about this in my previous entry. Hahaha. Kesian Wani. :P Yay! Nikko's back~ *flashes peace sign*

hyper hyper!!



Hehehe... I don't know why.. but I'm feeling hyper tonight. Gahhh... maybe they spiked my coke. They being the higher powers of They. Muahaha!! Hahaha.. isn't it just funny the way people sometimes just say things like "Oh, They all say wan" like there exists a higher power.. namely They. Hahaha. I don't know if I'm even making any sense at the moment.

Anyways, went to watch Hide and Seek just now with Wani and Aaron. Hehe.. and damnit.. it was sooooo cold in the theatre. I was shivering throughout the entire movie. And no, it wasn't because I was scared. It was because it was so friggin' cold. We went for the 7.15 movie which finished at about 9. Weird... I actually didn't think my mom would've let me out. But then again, I was going with Wani and I invited Aaron to come along as well. Haha. I actually invited him cos I felt bad that our whole family went to watch Robots without him. Hahaha. It was a good movie, I suppose. Except that.. it seems like all the horror movie that have been coming out from the US of A all use the same storyline!! Like, wtf?? Hahaha. Skip this next bit if you don't wanna know what I'm talking about. Cos I'm sorta spoiling the ending for those who might not have watched it yet.

Well, it seems as though the movie uses the same storyline as Secret Window and Madhouse. Both were of the same genre, horror/thriller. Both featured mad/crazy schizophrenics. All of whom thought that there was some unseen killer out to get them which in the end, turns out to be themselves. And just before they realise that it was them who had killed everyone, there's the usual flash flood of memories of what happened. Images of themselves killing those other innocent victims. Haihh.. Hahaha. But it was alright. Hehe. I got to watch my fave actress, Dakota Fanning. Why is she my fave? I just really admire her for her talents. Which is really huge for someone her age. I just really hope she doesn't grow up to be really spoilt and all that. Or turn into some kinda slut. Like, Christina Ricci. Hahaa. I don't know lah.. she just really seems like one. But yeah, whatever. All the best to Dakota Fanning.


Haha. There ya go. Highlight it if you just can't stand it and just HAVE to know what I wrote. Hahaha. As if I ever have anything interesting to say. And you know what's funny.. Wani and I seem to always read each other's minds. Hahaha. You'll probably hear us go "Hey, I was about to say that! You read my mind again" while you're around us. Hahaha. I always joke around and say that it's cos I'm psychic. Yeah yeah.. Hahaha. But who knows.. maybe I am? Hehehe.. cos I'm always beating Wani to it. As in, always saying things first.

Know what, I really think that sometimes I just don't know when to shut up. Hahaha. Sometimes I just seriously speak my mind. I have no idea how many times already I've come to close to saying things to my family like "Oh yeah! I've seen that movie already.. and you know what.. in it... bla bla bla" which really kinda.. puts me in danger cos then they'll know that I was at the movies and stuff when I probably shouldn't be. Hah!! Or like the other day.. when they were all talking about the missing guy in Niah.. I almost blurted it out and said "Yeah, but.. while I was there.. I saw all the police and army guys there too.. I think they were gonna go look for the guy" OMG. What if I HAD said that eh?? Hahaha. I'll be in such deep shit. Hahaha. I stopped myself just in time. I actually did..? Hahaha. But I only said like "Yeah, but....." then I just stopped. Then my mom asked "But what..?" Aduh. Think fast! "Oh, I was just about to say that the missing guy wasn't from my friend's XPDC group but I already said that before so I just stopped." Hahaha!! Lame!!! But at least I didn't blow it. Phew!~ Hahaha. After that.. I just decided to stop talking for the rest of the night. Takut already. Haha!

Well, that's all from me now. Wow.. that's long. And it's all crap. AMAZING. What to do.. have to practice what.. now that have to write essays and shit again. Haihhh... learn how to write a whole load of crap. Muahaha!! Well, yeah. Toodles!~

Monday, March 14, 2005

dedicated to my dear cousin/uncle, nyeh

Anyway, my uncle/cousin, Raymond, have been complaining that my blog is too boring cos there's no martial arts or any fighting on it. -_-" So this little clip I'm putting in this entry is for him. There. Happy now, Raymond??!

Hahaha!! Took if from my brother's blog. Kekekeh!! XD I love sharing these things with ppl lah~ Fun! Also, check this one out. It's a little flash parody of the Matrix. It's soooo hilarious!! Hahaha. A must-see!!

Also.. last night, I've discovered what must be the cutest webcomic, ever!!!! It's so cute, it's frustrating!! It's like when you see cute babies and you just wanna bite their cheeks off, or you just wanna rip their head off, or any of those other really inhuman things. *angelic face* Hee!! Anyway, that webcomic is going on my list of webcomics. Muahaha!! Brace yourself for what may be the most cutest and frustrating thing ever --> Bunny.

Sunday, March 13, 2005

been listening to a lot of oldies lately.. hmm... i'm getting old!!

Hehehe.. been listening to this really old song lately.. everytime I hear it, I'm brought back to the time where Rafie and I were at the park.. Taman Awam.. at night.. we went there together with his whole XPDC club.. then we went off on our own.. we were walking together.. hand in hand.. I remember those muddy patches on the ground.. where Rafie insisted on carrying me over.. Haha! He's so sweet, no? Then I remember that while we were walking.. he was singing me a bit of that song.. Hello by Lionel Richie. Awww...

I've been alone with you inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times
I sometimes see you pass outside my door
Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted, (and) my arms are open wide
'Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much, I love you...

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again how much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello, I've just got to let you know

'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying, I love you...

Hello, is it me you're looking for?
'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying... I love you..
=)

Saturday, March 12, 2005

life so far

I'm back and I'm finally in the mood for some yapping on my blog. Haven't really been in the mood lately cos of the situation between Rafie and I.. but heh.. after reading the testimonials he's written for me.. Heh.. renewed faith? :D I am certain of the way I feel for him. Always have been. However, I haven't been certain about the way he feels for me for the past few weeks. Frankly, I think he hates me now. But after reading what he wrote for me.. yeah.. I'm feeling better. Better, but not 100% fine yet. At least I feel.. like blogging now. =)

Anyway, I'm not sure where to start.. Hmm.. Well, ooohh.. yeah.. went to watch Robots yesterday with Derek and Wani. Nice movie. Not bad. Hahaha. I loved the 'fight' scene. Hahaha! Don't wanna spoil the movie for the rest of you who haven't watched it yet. =) It was nice.. going out again. Haven't really been out in such a long time. And you know what, another thing ah.. why the hell does everyone keep thinking that Derek and I are together?? EwwWWw......... Hahaha. No offense to Derek but he's just not my type. Rafie's my type. Hehe. Cos Wani was telling me that her cousin who was working at Parkson was asking if Derek and I were together. EwwWWww..... I just CANNOT imagine Derek and I together like that.. that's just..... gross. I mean, he's just like a brother to me. That sorta thing. Can you imagine going out with your brother???? EwwWWww....

Even the people in school think that way about us. Just cos we hang out a lot. How I know? Cos that's what people ask me. "Eh, you're that girl that's always hanging out with Derek, right? Are you two going out or something?" EwwWWwwww...!!! Hell no. Eeeeee.... *shudder* Can't imagine.

And another thing.. I really can't figure Wani's cousin out. I'm glad that at least, I'm not the one related to her. Haha. It's funny cos Wani says that's sometimes even she is embarrased to be around her cousin. She's 26 but she seems blurrer than Wani is. Which is amazing!! Hahaha. No offense to Wani. Wani is blur in a good and cute way. Wani's cousin is blur in a scary way. Hahaha!! At least.. that's what it sounds like from the stories Wani tells me. Nah, I don't have anything against her cousin. But I'm sure Derek does now. Hahaha! Wani was telling me yesterday how Derek was driving Wani's car with Wani sitting in the passenger seat. They were both in campus, picking Wani's cousin up. Then Wani's cousin told them that she wanted to go to the kedai runcit which was on campus which was supposed to only take awhile. So they sent her there, and waited for her. For a loooooong time. Which doesn't count as just being 'awhile' anymore.

After that.. she (Wani's cousin) insisted on dropping by DPS (Dua Puluh Sen) Supermarket to buy a newspaper only. So Derek drove there to drop her off and waited in the car together with Wani. (Oh ya, I was at Cheryl/Pei Ee's house at the time. Just waiting for Wani to come and pick me up.) Skali... after minutes of waiting, Wani's cousin finally reappeared out of the supermarket not only with a newspaper, but with other stuff she just decided on buying while she was there. And Wani and Derek had to wait for her, again. Really pity them. Lucky me. I was just chilling at Cheryl's house enjoying the air-con and the music. Hehe!!

After they dropped Wani's cousin off at Curtin Village, they both came to pick me up from Cheryl's house. Sort of. Why sort of? Cos from what they told me, they spent about 20 more minutes just looking for Pei Ee's house. Hahaha! I thought Wani knew where Pei Ee's house was. Cos Pei Ee has shown her where she would be staying. :P Funny thing happened while they were looking for the house. (Btw, Cheryl's house is the last house on the left at the end of the street. They turned into the right street. But drove into the house at the end of the street on the RIGHT. Pei Ee's house was the one right next to it, the one on the LEFT. Hahaha!! They were so blind... couldn't even see Pei Ee's white Satria parked in the driveway of the house which was right next door! Hahaha!! Funny funny.

And this is for you people who managed to put up with my rantings!~ And for waiting so patiently for me to blog. Or uhh.. actually anticipating my next blog!! :P Hehee. Thanks guys.


Monday, March 07, 2005

jiwang, mushy, manja me


Baby's getting ready to go to work..


Hehe.. pandai posing bah..

Those pictures were taken quite some time ago actually.. On the 18th of February to be exact..
the background really kaco lah.. Check out twin cancerous tigers - funny logic. Doesn't he just look so smart? *gush* Hehe.. and cute? And so handsome? *swoon* In love.. *has hearts in eyes, drooling* Hehehe. Sigh.. miss him so much. And to think I won't be hearing from him for the next 3 weeks. It was bad enough I haven't been hearing from him much lately. Much.. and now I won't be hearing from him at all.. =( I miss you, dear.. The past couple of weeks have been rough.. but I still love you.. I don't want anyone else.. I don't need anyone else.. I've found all I need in you.. you're worth all the trouble, b.. I love you..

Sunday, March 06, 2005

drunk people are funny, aye?



Just got back from doing my hair. Hehe. Dyed it brown. =) Oooh.. it's so soft and straight now. Swish swish! Hahaha. It won't last long though. I can never keep my hair as nice as this. Been out all day. Yawn! Nothing really interesting about it really except that I may now be taking violin lessons. Haha. Wonder how that's gonna go. Gonna be doing it at the same place where Andy's doing her piano lessons. Her first lesson was today. And she still haven't stopped playing the piano back home ever since she got here. Probably gonna be taking them on Monday afternoons since I don't have any classes on Monday.

Was gonna put up a new post yesterday but then something happened and all that I wrote went kapoof! gone. How annoying. Well, Rafie's spending the weekend at Damai Resort. So I decided that rather than staying at home and moping around, I should try to get out of the house more, get distracted, and try not to be so miserable. Why am I miserable? Well, I haven't really been talking to Rafie much lately... what with him being busy most of the time now what with finals coming up and all those assignments. And everytime we did talk, we would end up fighting. So yeah.. it's been a pretty miserable week. I've lost whatever appetite I ever had for food. Been forcing myself to eat just for the sake of eating. Even then, the food would seem tasteless. And then I'll just get really nauseous and I just want to throw up everything I just ate. That's not good, is it? :P

Anyway, we all went to Brunei at 11am yesterday. I only found out that we were all going to Brunei when I woke up that morning. Then I was debating with myself over whether I should go or not. In the end, I decided that I should try and get myself out of this miserable state and just go. Try some shopping therapy. See what that's all about. See whether it works. Unfortunately though, I didn't buy anything while I was there. All I bought were kebabs and a can of drink. Heh. Could say that I also brought everyone else's mood down with mine. What with that dark cloud hanging over me the whole time I was there. I practically glared at everyone that looked my way. >:)

Anyway, we all got back from Brunei at about 4pm. Then I decided at last minute to go for that O-nite (Orientation Night) that they were gonna have at the beach later that night. At least, I thought it was gonna be only at night. Cos right after I got back from Brunei, I fell asleep on the couch only to be rudely awakened by Wani on the phone telling me to get ready cos she would be coming to pick me up in 20 minutes. Why? Cos she just found out that the thing actually started at 4.30pm. -_-" Quickly washed my face and changed clothes and off I went. We went to drop Philla and Kingsley over at LV (Lutong Villa) before heading to Piasau Boat Club, where O-nite was held this year. When Wani and I arrived at PBC, we headed towards the beach where we walked barefoot on the sand. Something I haven't done in a long time.

At 6.30pm, we all headed back to the restaurant where Wani and I sat at a table in a corner. Hah. How anti-social of us. :P Anyway, at first we were joined by a group of 4 people. 2 guys and 2 girls. We only found out two of their names, Eddie and Annabelle. The other 2 were too busy paying attention to what was going on in the front. They soon left us though, for some last minute rehearsals. After which when they returned, sat at a different table. Wani and I were abandoned. When the speeches were going on though, 3 chinese guys joined us and sat with us at our table. Never found out any of their names. They were all too busy talking amongst themselves in Chinese. Soon, it was time for the buffet. Finally!! Haha. So Wani and I got up to go get some grub. When we returned to our table, 2 indian guys were sitting there. So.. what the heck. We were there first anyway so we sat there. A nepali guy joined the rest of us soon after. Only can remember one of their names though.. one of the indian guys, Tony. Why only one? Cos the other two had names that were too hard to pronounce and remember. Which made Wani and I feel really guilty.

Foreign dudes are funny. Especially when they start trying to use the 'lah' slang. Hahaha!! Cos they would start using it after each and every sentence. Which was funny really since Wani and I didn't say 'lah' at all that night. Not around them anyway. All of us at that table were really a bunch of wallflowers. We wouldn't dance. We wouldn't participate. Well, Wani, Tony, and I wouldn't anyway. Since the nepali kept whistling for the performances, and the other indian dude actually asked Wani and I to dance. Which we refused. Haha. I can't dance!! He kept saying "Don't worry. I'll teach you once we get up there" and I'll just shake my head and say no. Haha. JB took some pictures of Wani and I. His band (I think) were performing too on that night. He kept complaining about how boring it was. Kinda true. But I thought.. oh well.. at least it's better than me staying home, moping about. Like what I've been doing all week.

Doesn't mean that I didn't miss Rafie at all though.. still missed him. But at least I had someting that distracted me from.. I don't know. Crying? Haha. Then today, woke up late. Heh.. then went out with mom, Jenny Ee, Grace, and Andy to her first music lesson. So that I could go check out the violin lessons too. Went to SF Coffee for a bit. Sent Andy back home, then Jenny Ee dropped my mom and I to the hair salon where I had my hair done. Wanted to dye it red actually.. then decided at last minute to dye it brown instead. Hehe.. I think 2 of the hairdressers there were guys.. Sure, they had boobs.. But they were TALL and they had faces like guys. They also had butts like guys. Cos they were.. not as round as the ladies. Hahaha!! And man.. one of them had really long hair. Longer than mine. Silky too. Hehe. =)

Rafie's gonna be home late tonight, again. Sigh. Oh well, he's got work to do. I can't just tell him not to do it. I don't want him to fail. I still miss him loads though.

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

back due to unpopular demand


So, guess what.. I'm back. Hah! Anyway, in this post.. I'm just gonna tell y'all about a few of my little discoveries from the web. Yahah. So sit back, and listen up!! Or read properly, whatever.
  1. The Polyphonic Spree - I don't really know who these people are.. just stumbled across them while surfing the net. I think they're a band. They actually scare me a little. Cos they look... too happy. Like hippies or something. Not that hippies are bad. They're just different and strange and well, scary. :D Well, do listen to them. I rather like the Hold Me Now song. Very catchy!! Here are the lyrics to that song.
    He started the day with a mood and a shake.
    He was finally arranged.
    And someone said with a cold,
    hard chest, “You’re a mess.”
    He woke up at nights.He thought he was twice.
    He was moving away cause everyone thinks that it goes away with age.
    Hold me now.
    Don’t start shaking.
    You keep me safe.
    Don’t ever think you’re the only one when times are tough in your new age.
    You better be cool at the time.
    He’s walking along with his soul in his lungs.
    Ya stare at him long you can find a new song.
    Everyone thinks they’ve got a new phrase.
    But you’re still miles away.
    You’re still miles away. I said, “You’re still miles away.”
    Hold me now.
    Don’t start shaking.
    You keep me safe.
    Don’t ever think you’re the only one when times are tough in your new age.

  2. Also, I've added more webcomics to the list. Yeah, I love webcomics!! Anyway, amongst them are:

  3. Oh yeah, just remembered one more thing to show y'all. This one's a music video. Metal band konon. It's just.. too aborable and cute to be hardcore. Look out for their syncronised head banging. Amon Amarth - The pursuit of vikings