middle person

Lately, since my grandma is here.. whenever I'm alone with either my mom or my grandma, I'd be listening to them bitch about each other all the time. Haha. It's so funny. What do you think? Is it nice being the middle person being able to hear all the bad things about the other person? But I guess it could be pretty stressing too. Especially when you gotta take sides. When one of them asks you about their opinion on the other person and goes "Right?" then you're in big trouble especially when you really don't wanna take sides.

Well, Rafie and I are still together. I'm gonna try my best. I really don't want to let him go actually.. but I don't know.. I just somehow felt like we were stuck..? That we couldn't move forward from here on? That all we are left with are fights, disagreements, hurt. But he's convinced me that it's not like that at all. =) He was right.. it's our human nature to focus on the bad things in life and to forget all the good times we had when we're not in the right mood.

PS. We got a new fridge yesterday. We all didn't even know about it. Only my parents knew. When Aaron and I got home, we were all like, 'Eh? Where did that fridge come from??'. Even Andy, who had been home when the fridge was delivered was all like, 'Eh? Whose fridge is this?'. Even my grandma was suprised at how it just managed to appear out of nowhere just like that.

what should happen now?

Urgh!! I'm now the family chauffeur. -_-" Every weekday have to go and pick up siblings from school... I already don't really like driving as it is. Unless I'm allowed to speed. >:) Hahaha. Duh.. who wouldn't like that, eh? But unfortunately, thanks to traffic jams, my concience and sympathy for my passengers, I don't. My grandma came down from Singapore on Saturday, the 29th. And now that my she's is here.. I've got one more customer to chauffeur for since my mom doesn't allow her to use the car anymore cos she's getting old... and cos they've changed the roads around here... don't want my grandma ending up lost or getting into an accident and what not especially not when she's not insured. Either that or cos my mom wants to keep me busy. Not wanting me to be on the pc or having any time to myself at all. Grrr... I won't be suprised if that's the whole reason behind her wanting me to drive instead of my grandma.

Yesterday, on Sunday, went to watch the annual Miri Orchestra and Choir Society (MOCS) concert at the auditorium at Pustaka Miri. I didn't know what to expect. Went there with Aaron, Greg, and Daniel. I actually didn't expect any kids around, you know. It being an orchestra kinda thing and all. Only expected old people, like adults around. Haha. Didn't expect any teenagers like our group around either. Well, I was wrong about the little kids. There were still loads there. The teenagers thing though, I was right. There weren't anyone else around our age around. None in the audience, at least. Only maybe on stage. Some of my relatives were performing. I didn't know that they were involved in it. Haha. My uncles, Desmond and Jonah were singing in the choir and my other little uncle, Lionel was in the orchestra, playing the trumpet.

There was this little girl and her mother who were sitting in front of me. Her head was full of the softest cutest curls ever. And her voice was so adorable. All throughout the concert, she kept asking her mother what was going on in that cute voice of hers. Her mom kept going 'shhh...' at her but she kept asking anyway. I probably paid more attention to that little girl than the people playing on stage. The most adorable thing about her was that she was so small but so smart, so curious, so inquisitive. Her mother tried as best she could to answer all her questions and was very patient with her. I could tell her mom was proud to have a daughter like her. Everytime the audience applauded for the performers on stage.. that little girl would clap her hands excitedly over her head. So cute! Anyways, during one performance with a violinist and a pianist only, the G string from the violinist's violin had come off. After that performance, the little girl's mother had turned around to ask us "That violinist's G-string came off, didn't it?" and then she just realised what she had said and went "Opps.. G-string.. Haha." with a sheepish grin on her face. Even her mother is just so adorable.

Yesterday also marked 5 months of me and Rafie being together. Yesterday was also the first time I tried leaving him. Why? It's not that I want to.. but sometimes I just feel like I'm being selfish cos there must be some other girl out there who deserves him more than me and then I'm just holding him back from meeting her sooner by being with him. Plus, I just couldn't take me upsetting him all the time. I couldn't take how my heart feels everytime I do something wrong. I feel like one day, it's just gonna stop beating from all this hurt and I'm just gonna die and he won't know about it. I couldn't take him doubting me all the time either but maybe this isn't something I should mention here. Not so much anyway? Heh.. anyway, we're still together.. but I don't know what's gonna happen from here now on.. He says he's not gonna leave.. but I kinda doubt that.. I just can't believe him when he says that. Not right now..

XPDC trip - day 3

What was the supposedly evil plan? Well.. Wani and I came up with it.. as we were chatting on the night of the 12th of January. The thought of it was already there in my mind.. Wani just acted as a catalyst, convincing me to actually do it. I HAD to do it anyway.. not only cos he had left his digicam with me and that he had my CD player with him.. but because I couldn't just let Rafie leave without me saying a proper goodbye to him.. and have the thought of the last memory I would have of him from that trip.. of me, just jumping into the car and taking off without a word.. without him even knowing I had left.. swim around in my head, haunting me? Na-ah.

I am supposed to be in bed by 11pm... stupid curfew imposed on me and my siblings by my parents.. anyway, at 11pm, everyone had gone to bed already except for me and my dad. So I decided to put on a movie on the DVD player to buy me some time before my dad goes to bed and at least he won't ask me to go to bed just yet. They only placed that curfew on us, so that we wouldn't stay online or on the computer till late at night and since we're all not really the kind to watch TV, we would all just go to bed. I did that so that hopefully, he wouldn't turn on the alarm just yet.. Mind you, our alarm here is quite annoying cos it beeps continously for 30 secs once we've turned on the alarm and when we turn it off, it just beeps really fast but at least it only lasts for 2 seconds maybe. This beeping thing could be heard all over the house. So yes, I didn't want my dad turning on the alarm. Unfortunately, he did. So after a few minutes.. I paused my movie.. went to my bag.. took out my wallet.. went to grab one of the car keys.. unlocked the door.. switched off the alarm which then produced that evil beeping noise which was sure to bring either one of my parents back downstairs to investigate, walked up to the car, unlocked it, tossed my wallet under one of the seats and proceeded to pretend to look for it. Only after a few minutes of searching then did I 'find' my 'lost' wallet under one of the seats. After I got out of the car, yups, there my dad was at the windows.. looking pissed.. and glaring at me.

When I got back into the house.. He just snapped at me and said 'Go to bed' and turned off the TV and the DVD player on which my unfinished movie was playing. But at least he didn't go and lock the doors and turn on the alarm himself. He left me to do it. Hehe.. >:) I stayed downstairs for awhile while he went back upstairs to bed and then I quickly ran into my room, grabbed a few clothes and stuffed them into my bag. I even opened up my packet of unopened pepper spray to bring with me, just in case. I then closed my bedroom door and went over to Aaron's room to wake him up and ask for a favour. It was dark and I accidentally tripped which caused me to fall on Aaron's head on the bed. Opps. He was then all grumpy and stuff. I don't blame him. I had to wake him up to help me lock the doors and turn on the alarm after I leave the house. What's weird was that.. he didn't even ask me any questions.. I just said to him "Aaron, you gotta help me lock the doors and turn on the alarm.. I'm going to Wani's place now.. I just can't let her go to Niah alone." So we both went downstairs.. he just trudged down after me. I went out the front door and closed it as quietly as I could behind me. From outside, I could hear the alarm being turned on and the door being locked.

By this time.. it was already past midnight and I didn't want to risk the chance of one of my parents looking out the window should they hear the sound of the gates being opened and seeing that yes, their gates have been opened and then going out to investigate only to find me trying to sneak out of the house. So yeah, I went to use the fence instead. One thing I learned that night was that.. you should never ever wear tight jeans when trying to scale a fence. I also learned that.. our fences are really higher than I thought it was. I had to climb on the green bin that MMC had provided everyone in the neighbourhood just so that I could be able to get over the fence and that was how I had hurt my still aching foot. Heh. By landing hard on the other side of the fence. After landing there, I just ran. I ran till I had crossed the road where the traffic lights were. As I was running, I kept looking back.. I kept expecting them to come after me. But they didn't. After I had passed the traffic lights, I started walking. This time, I didn't even look back. I didn't stop walking. I didn't stop or slow down at the thought that this may not be such a good idea. I didn't do all that because.. all I could think of was Rafie. Heh.. about how I just had to see him again. How I just had to say a proper goodbye.

The roads were quite empty although there were still a few cars about.. As I turned down the dark street which leads to Wani's house.. dogs everywhere started barking.. the ones behind fences, held back by their owner's gates and fences just growled and barked fiercely.. the ones on the street just keep following me.. unsure of whether to attack or not.. but they kept barking.. and they kept following me.. one almost tried to bite me. This whole time.. I held the pepper spray close.. ready to be used should something happen. It was so terrifying.. I could hear dogs barking from even several houses away. Already warned that someone is coming. Luckily I made to it Wani's house, a bit shaken but safe. Only when did I arrive at Wani's house did I notice that my hands were bleeding. Must've happened as I was scaling the fence. Those spikes on top had been the cause to my then bleeding hands. In fact, the cuts that were made are still there. They would be gone soon enough though.

We had to be quiet there in Wani's house because her mom is a light sleeper and the slightest noise could wake her up. It was at Wani's house that I realised that I had not brought my house keys with me so I had to use Wani's hp to sms my brother to have my keys ready later when I go pick them up at my ex-school. On my way to Wani's house, Wani called, so I warned her that I wanted to take a shower there, at her house, because I didn't have time to do it at home cos I had to get out of the house sooner than we had planned should we want to pull this off. So then I took my shower there. I didn't even mind that the water was freezing.. just the feel of water running over me.. cooling me down was calming. After I was done with my shower, Wani opened the gates, and we shifted her Kenari into neutral, put down the handbrakes, and pushed her car out of her garage and out onto the road outside, some way away from her house so that when we started the engine, her mom wouldn't be able to hear us. We didn't want to wake her mom up because her mom only thought that we would be leaving for Niah at about 5.30am.

We left Wani's house at 1.30am. The whole time we were in the car headed to Niah, we were at an almost complete utter shock. That we were actually sneaking out of the house. It being our first time and all. What's more, we were headed someplace about 2 hours away from Miri. I feel guilty for always dragging Wani into my many evil schemes but in a way I'm glad that she's there. On our journey there.. the windows kept fogging up.. added to the fact that it was misty.. made the journey quite difficult and Wani wasn't driving the way she usually does. Which I am thankful for. I would've been so nervous if she drove the way she usually does - fast and reckless. Haha. Usually I wouldn't mind because I would know the roads, but this time, I didn't cos I've never been to Niah. Oh well. =)

We arrived at Niah National Park at 3am. We had managed to make it to Niah in only 1 hour and 30 minutes. >:) We're good. Haha. As we drove through the Niah National Park's gates, I saw Rafie.. just standing there.. waiting for us to arrive. Wani drove past him at first and then just stopped her car and said to me "Nah, you go see him first" so I got out of the car and started towards him. Walking pretty fast, no, not running.. and he was also walking towards me fast.. and we just hugged each other.. for quite sometime. Heh.. =) Can't help but smile at the memory of it.. We hugged each other until it just started to hurt cos he was holding me pretty tight that I had to tell him to let go.

After I got out my bag, Rafie led me and Wani to the chalet where he was staying. Heh.. it was so nice to have him hold my hand again.. hmm.. on the way on to the chalet though.. I had accidentally stepped on a snail that was on the trail with my right foot. Eurgh.. poor snail.. at the chalet.. Wani just plopped down onto the couch and went to sleep. Poor Rafie and I.. we both just had to make do with the two-seater while Wani got the three-seater. Rafie and I just sat and talked.. it was just so nice to see him again.. Heh.. after awhile Wani went to sleep in one of the rooms where Rafie was supposed to sleep.. so then Rafie and I moved over to the three-seater instead.. we were just both lying there.. he told me not to fall asleep cos he wanted to keep on talking to me.. cos this was gonna be the last time we're gonna be able to see each other in awhile.. so I said I won't.. at least I tried not to.. but after awhile.. I kinda fell asleep right there in his arms.. heh.. I know I wasn't supposed to fall asleep.. but I couldn't help it.. I just felt so comfortable right there in his arms.. and it was so nice to be waking up to find him still there. Heh.

Soon it was already 7am. The time they were all scheduled to leave. But some of them were still asleep. Including their bus driver so they were delayed. Happy la of course. More time to spend with Rafie.. Hehe.. Oh btw, they didn't manage to go explore the caves and all that because some guy got himself lost and there was a whole search and rescue thing going on at Niah for this guy. Poor XPDC club members.. seems as though nothing they have planned were going their way. Anyways, while walking back out to the carpark from the chalet, I had once again amazingly managed to step on that very same snail I had squished the night before only this time it was with my left foot. -_-" Anyways, whilst waiting for everyone to arrive and get onto their bus.. they all had another group photo taking session. With another 'Welcome to....' sign. As usual. Hehe.. Here's one of me and Rafie.. =)

At Niah.

When the bus started leaving, me and Wani followed from behind. At Niah.. there's this one street with a Shell petrol station on the right and a Petronas petrol station on the left. Right opposite each other. We turned in to the right to fill up our petrol tank and the bus turned in to the left to fill it's petrol tank. Since our car is smaller, we had finished filling out petrol pretty quick. After which Wani then sped off. Then at last minute, I saw Rafie waving to us to stop on our left.. but Wani just kept on going until Rafie called me up on one of his friend's hp and asked us to turn around for awhile.. so we did.. Rafie and I had our last hug there.. Sigh.. =( didn't want him to go.. but I know that would've been ridiculous. Heh.

After awhile, Wani said that her leg was bothering her so I offered to drive for her. We managed to make it back to Miri by about 10am. To which then I quicky sped to Aaron's school, ran in.. ran all the way up to Aaron's class.. grabbed the keys.. and then ran back out to the car and quickly sped back home. I thought I saw my dad's car drive past me on my way back home but luckily, my dad isn't the kinda person to notice people driving on the road. Got back home, found my door still closed so I guess no one bothered checking on me. For which I'm glad. I quickly stashed my bag back up in my room and quickly got all my chores done and by the time my parents got home, no one was the better. =)

XPDC trip - day 2

Miri, 12th January 2005 - Wahaha!! Macam berita pulak. Anyways, yeah.. on this day.. me and Rafie got out of the house late.. cos my dad also for some reason went for work late that day. Which is rather odd since he usually gets out of the house pretty early. Heh.. when I went downstairs to check to see whether the coast was clear.. and found my dad still downstairs.. I got so worried. Hahaha.. but he went to work in the end anyway. Phew~ Wani and Mimin came to pick us up and we all drove at the Inn to meet up with the rest of them. Since we went to meet up with them late.. we had to miss breakfast.

That day.. we all went up to the Brunei border. Just cos the rest of the XPDC club wanted to go take some pictures in front of a sign that says 'Welcome to Brunei'. Hahaha. As if they had really gone to visit Brunei. :P So anyway.. we all drove up to the border.. and past the imigration place. They were so nice to let us through just for us to take some pictures on the other side although we all did not have any passports and what not with us. Anyways, Mimin and Wani stayed behind in the car whilst Rafie and I went out to join the rest of them. Oh btw, they had their own bus and all. That's how they came up to Miri. Teehee.

At the Brunei border.

After that, whilst the rest of them went to Parkson, me, Wani, Rafie, and Mimin went to do some marketing. Had to help them out to buy some stuff for a BBQ they were planning on having later that night when they go to Niah. So we all first went to Pottery where we bought stuff like tongs, charcoal, chicken wire, cooking oil, fire starters, BBQ sauce, etc. After that we went to a place where Wani said her mom said is a good place to buy meat stuffs. Unfortunately, they don't sell whole chicken there.. and that was what they wanted. They wanted 7 whole chickens. So, I suggested we go to a place near Parkson. Hmm.. what's the place called... Ayam A+. Haha. Wani had a hard time picking up whole chickens and putting them into the plastic bags. She was screaming, saying that the chickens were still alive and all. -_-" Hahaha.

Funny thing happened while we were at Ayam A+... okay.. the doors into the place were sliding doors.. and they were closed. Rafie was sitting on a stool on one side of the door, right next to the cashier. So then, there came this lady who wanted to come into the shop but she didn't know that those doors were sliding doors so she tried pushing and pulling them but they still wouldn't budge. So then I decided to help and tugged open the door which then slammed into Rafie's shoulder which of course made him yell out in pain and he then started cluthing his shoulder with one hand and this whole time.. I couldn't help but laugh. I don't know why. Sometimes it's just funny when someone gets hurt, isn't it? Haha. But I really was concerned about how he was although all I mostly did was laugh.. but in between the laughter I did ask how he's doing and if he was alright. Stupid questions really when I can see that he's not. Poor baby... Btw, I wasn't the only one laughing there, alright? Wani, Mimin, and the cashier lady were giggling and all that as well which proves that I'm not the only evil one there.

While I was at Ayam A+, my mom also called me up and forced me to go home. I really wish I didn't have to go... I just wanted to spend as much time with Rafie as I could.. cos he was only there in Miri for 2 days since it was a club trip kinda thing. I told my mom that I didn't have a ride home cos Wani is also busy with this thing to which my mom then said she would then just come and pick me up. Grrr... so at around 1pm, my mom pulled up to the shop and I just jumped into the car and just took off without so much as a bye to Rafie. =( Couldn't anyway.. couldn't let my mom him there. Heh.. otherwise she's gonna wonder why he's there. :P She would've recognized him from the first time he came over to Miri to visit me when we faked a fake project with the help of Syafiq and Wani where I had them also stay over at my house to work on a 'project'. Heheh..

Anyways, yeah.. so then I went home.. cos I had to take care of Andy, my lil sister. Rafie actually wanted to stay behind in Miri whilst the rest of the group went off to Niah. So that he could spend more time with me. Then he was to stay over at Harvill's house later that night, if he had stayed anyway. Wow.. amazing isn't it? Only one night of knowing each other and already Harvill sudi let Rafie stay overnight at his place? Hehe. We all actually planned to go up to Canada Hill later that afternoon.. after the rest of them had left for Niah. But since now I couldn't go, Rafie decided to just join the rest of them to Niah. =( I was a bit sad.. I didn't want him to go.. but I understood completely why he did. Besides, we still wouldn't have been able to see each other should he have stayed in Miri.

So later that afternoon, Mimin and Wani came over... we all stayed out on the porch and talked all afternoon. Oh, and Aaron joined us soon after after he got back from school. Wani and I actually planned on going to Niah the next day to join them in their activities. I was really excited about the idea of going.. one, cos I'll be seeing Rafie again and two, cos I've never been to Niah.. and I was really just excited about hiking and trekking about the place with Rafie. Hehe. Unfortunately though.. later that night, when I asked my parents about going down to Niah with Wani, they refused to let me go and Wani probably wouldn't be allowed to go either should her mom find out that I actually wasn't allowed to go with Wani. So hence hatched an evil plan.

XPDC trip - day 1

Well, my parents got a new toaster for us to use. Haha. The old one is now sitting outside on the porch. Darn.. I liked that toaster. =( Oh well..

Hurm.. yes, I promised that I would tell you a story of why my foot hurts. Still does, btw. This is gonna be a 3 part story for you all. ;) Brace yourselves. Well.. 2 weeks ago.. the Unimas XPDC club came over on a trip to Miri. Actually the whole point of their trip was to go to Niah, but they decided to come up to Miri first. Hehe. Rafie's in the club, so he asked me to help them out with accomodation and all that. And so I did.. sort of.. I actually wanted them to stay at Apple Lodge which is located near M², CB, Al Fresco and all that so that at least during the night.. they would have a place to go. And it's just nearby. Plus, there was free wifi at Al Fresco and The Other Office, which is a bar. And so I gave them the number for them to do a booking at the lodge. Unfortunately, the owner of the lodge and Hazam, who is the project leader, couldn't come to an agreement and therefore, they didn't have a place to stay.

I had dragged Wani and Yasmin into this to help me out and so that I won't have to handle the crowd alone. :P Anyways, and then, at last minute, on Monday afternoon, the day before they were scheduled to arrive in Miri, Mimin, Wani, JB, and I went out scouting for a place for them to stay which is in their budget. They had limited it to only 20 ringgit per head. So then we found a place.. Million Inn... urgh.. I didn't really like the place.. but I wouldn't have minded just staying one night there. As long as it's not more. Heh.. I was so so so so so so so worried the night before they were scheduled to arrive that they were gonna hate me cos of the place we put them in to stay for the night. I couldn't really sleep that night.. I was so worried about that.. plus, I was so anxious to see Rafie again.. I couldn't wait to see him again.. plus, the next day I was gonna wear a skirt. Why? Rafie lorrrr!!!!

Anyways, the next day.. I woke up bright and early.. to go out and meet them at wherever they were gonna be at. Unfortunately, they were delayed. So Wani, Mimin, and I just stayed back and hung around my house for a bit more. We only left the house at about 9. We went to the Visitor's Information Centre cos that was where they were. Wani parked the car at the Tamu, well, actually I did, since I was the one driving, but Wani was the one that stayed behind in the car whilst Mimin and I crossed the street towards the Visitor's Info Centre. I was so nervous.. I could see Rafie standing right outside the building.. looking like he always does. With his football jersey and his sunglasses. Hehe. Oh.. and you can read Mimin's account of things at AttentionSeeker : (can't think of a bloody title) . Hehehe.. was so happy to see him again.. but couldn't help but still feel worried about whether the rest of them would be okay with the place I had put them in. Gahhhhh.. and Rafie kept teasing me!!! *sob* Meanie.

Well, anyways, after the Visitor's Info Centre... we brought them out for breakfast then after that it was to the Inn. After that, we went to Boulevard. Where Rafie bought me hurm.. 3 t-shirts?? Well, he insisted!! Should've seen the look on my face when he paid for them.. so pale and guilty looking. Heh.. not like I didn't apppreciate them though. I love them. Just not used to having anyone spending so much on me. Oh.. and he also got me this really nice necklace. Teehee. Thanks, dear! Love them so much. Love you too. =)

The receipt -_-"

After Boulevard, we went to the Miri City Fan... too bad it was raining at the time. At least it wasn't pouring.

At Miri City Fan ^^

After Miri City Fan, we went to Tanjong Beach. It was still drizzling when we were there though. Oh man.. the beach!! Damn... a funny thing happened there... Rafie and I were out on the pier.. Rafie had passed his digicam to one of his friends to take a picture of us.. so we were standing there.. smiling.. with our backs towards the sea when suddenly the girls in front of us started screaming.. and the looks of people's faces in front of us changed.. I was like uh-oh.. and Rafie turned around to look behind us, alas, it was too late.. a damn huge ass wave crashed over the both of us. I was socked from top to bottom and so was Rafie. But the difference was that.. you couldn't tell at all that he was soaked cos of the clothes he was wearing.. he had black jeans on. I had blue jeans on. I have long hair. He has short hair. Well, too bad his friend didn't take a picture just as the wave crashed on the both of us. But he did take one of us after we got hit.

Struck by our own mini tsunami. Haha.

Anyways, after the beach, went back to the Inn to freshen up before dinner. Luckily it had stopped raining by then. Went to eat at Aseanika that night. Lucky Rafie bought me those t-shirts and that I had brought jeans along (which got soaked at the beach) cos I didn't want to have to wear a skirt all day. So I was back in my skirt and my new t-shirt by dinnertime. Heheh.. after dinner.. we all headed to the Taman Awam.. and I found out that there had built a new suspension bridge. Cool. But too bad it was closed off. =( Hehehe.. later on though.. Rafie and I went down the hill.. and started playing at the children's playground there. Hahaha. Man.. we're both such kids. Pretty soon.. everyone else in the club started joining us. The guys especially. Aduh.. and I learned one really important lesson that day.. which was to never ever go down a slide in a skirt!!! Hahaha! Never again. :D

After me and Rafie had satisfied our childish fetishes.. we went to explore more of the park and went up to the skatepark bit of the place.. several of the trails up there were muddy.. hehe.. so Rafie carried me over those bits. Awwww... Hehehe. So adorable. Love him so much. After we had seen the skatepark, we went up to the tower which overlooked the park. Nice view... =)

Taman Awam

Anyways, after that... while the rest went back to the Inn, Wani dropped me and Rafie off at the shoplots in Pujut 7. Yasmin had gone home earlier so she didn't join us for dinner. Why didn't Rafie stay with the rest of the club at the inn? Well, cos he wanted to stay over at my place? Then why did Wani drop us off at the shoplots instead of my house? Because my dad was still up. Hehehe.. so... me and Rafie walked to a nearby bus stop, just to kill time, which was located at Pujut 7d, I think. After staying there for a bit.. I suggested that we go over to my friend, Harvill's house. So that I could also, at the same time, introduce him to another one of my friends. Hehehe. So I called up Harvill and soon we were walking down the street to his house. Rafie and Harvill really hit it off. I don't really know if that's a good thing or a bad thing cos pretty soon both of them were bullying me. -_-"

Anyways, we both were standing out there on Harvill's driveway for pretty much an hour.. until 12.15 maybe when we both decided that we should be heading back to my house. Cos my dad should be asleep by then. Harvill offered to drive us back there.. which I didn't mind. Hehehe. Standing up for like an hour whilst carrying bags that seem to be getting heavier by the minute can be pretty stressing. Hehe.

Anyways, got home.. went up to my room.. Heh.. my mom woke up... and hehe.. Rafie had to go hide under the bed. Haha. The poor boy was so terrified. I was only amused. Well, my mom left soon after. The poor boy. Teehee. Hmmm.. or maybe not so poor after all? Hahaha. :P

cicak flavoured toast

Well, one thing that I forgot to mention last night was that there was a horrid smell that has been invading our kitchen since yesterday afternoon. At first it just smelled like fish.. and I thought that maybe the neighbours had taken out some fish to cook.. then later at night.. the smell turned into something like belacan. And I thought that maybe the neighbours were making belacan. Haha.. that's why I didn't really bother investigating any further. Plus, the smell seemed to be coming from the outside.

Later that night though.. my parents made me and Aaron look for the source of the smell. We figured it was either a dead rat or lizard. We looked practically everywhere... under the kitchen counters, under the shelves, behind boxes, inside shoes, under the washing machine, the dryer, the dishwasher, the fridge... but found nothing. In the end.. we all gave up. I went online to type out my first entry and everyone else either went online, watched tv, or went to bed.

Anyways, I woke up this morning at about 10.. took my shower.. until about 10.30.. which was when I went downstairs to have breakfast. We all had toast, bacon, and eggs. The usual. Which I enjoyed. After that me and Aaron cleaned up.. washed the dishes, wiped the table.. etc etc.

Just now.. at around 3pm.. my mom asked me to go and make some milk for my little sister, Andy. So, I went to boil some water first. Our electric kettle is right next to the toaster, you see.. So when I went to boil some water.. I picked up the toaster to put it away.. further away from the kettle so that I would be able to reach the kettle.. as I picked it up, I remembered once when one of my aunts found a dead lizard in their toaster.. and they have been using the toaster for quite some time without realising that there had been a dead lizard in their toaster the whole time.. and that's when I decided to check the toaster.. for maybe that's where the smell was coming from. And lo and behold! I was right.

Hahaha.. right there and then.. I went "ew ew ew ew ew ew ew!!" and walked out of the kitchen into the music room still going "ew ew ew ew", i might add, to where everyone was. Everyone just turned to look at me and asked "found it?". And well.. the answer was pretty obvious, wasn't it? What's weird was that.. the smell never smelled like it had come from the toaster at all. Haha. So there.. the case of the mysterious smell, solved.

I still can't believe I ate toast from that toaster this morning though. Gross!

the walking dead

Well, here I am.. once again.. blogging, again. What shall become of this blog? Will it end in disaster? Only to be abandoned once again by me? Only time will tell. Hahaha. Okay okay.. I'll just cut it out with the dramatics. Hahaha. Well, yeah.. here I am!! Back again~ I actually wanted to start a new blog once the new year started.. unfortunately.. I was just too lazy to actually start one right away. Teehee. Plus, I couldn't think of a proper name to use for my blog.

Anyways, with the help of Mimin.. I finally figured out what name to use for the url! Thanks, Min! And now.. I've decided to use proper, full words.. instead of my usual short forms. Cos after reading some of my old blogs.. and getting pretty frustrated at the way I typed.. I've decided to do it properly this time round!

Hmmm.. I don't exactly know how to start this.. I'll probably just keep it short.. Wanna go to sleep soon.. then my baby is gonna call me later. Hehe.. well, that's one thing that I should mention.. that I am now taken~ Teehee.. and I like it that way.. that I'm taken by him. Who knew that I would be able to find true love once again? I didn't think I could.. not after what happened with my 2nd one. =) But I'm glad I did.. He's been so wonderful to me.. ever since we got together on the 30th of August. Hmm... amazingly.. we met each other through Friendster. Hahaha. Whoever said that Friendster doesn't work, eh? ;) I know.. I know.. I must've been nuts to get together with a guy I met on Friendster. Hahaha.. and yes.. even for me.. it has been hard to believe! What's worse is that.. we both decided to get together with each other only after 8 days of knowing each other online. Hahaha. The first time I chatted to him... we chatted all night.. into the early morning.. until I was caught by my pretty pissed off dad. Hehe.. and I remember him asking me if I wanted to hear him sing.. I was like 'alright'. Hehe.. so he did. He said it was cos he was in a pretty good mood. I had no idea why? And I still don't. Haha. Anyways.. the song he sang was Berhenti Berharap by Sheila on 7. Hehe.. but during those 8 days.. we chatted everyday.. and we called each other up.. it's weird.. I somehow wasn't nervous calling him at all. Teehee.

I'm real lucky to have found someone like him, I should say.. No one else has ever cared for me as much as he does. Hmm.. oh yea.. and he's 2 years older than me. Sometimes I don't even remember that he's that much older. Just feels like he's the same age or something. He says it's cos I'm more mature than others my age.. but maybe he's just more immature than those in his age group? Hahaha! Jk. He's definitely more mature than I am.. although he does merajuk quite a lot. Haha! Well, at least he doesn't do it as much as he used to.. not like in the beginning. Hehehe.

Well.. we've been together now for 4 months.. coming to 5. I'm hoping it would last much much longer. Forever, maybe? Heh.. *touch wood* Don't wanna be jinxing myself right now. =)

And... argh!! My foot still hurts... since last week.. =( I hurt it when I didn't land quite so properly when I scaled the fence last week. Heheh.. long story... maybe I'll tell it another time. Not right now. Must keep my readers in suspense. Wahaha!! As if I've got any readers anyway.

Hehe.. what inspired me to start a new blog? Well, the new year for one. Suddenly felt like I wanted to make a new one sempena the new year. Haha. But.. the new year soon passed. And then recently I got to reading several blogs of people I knew.. which made me suddenly crave the ability to live out my life online. Cewah. Hmmm... it's close to midnight right now. So.. I suppose I'll just end here. More later. Promise! Teehee!